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[mermaidblue]

So, I am now sitting in Zebulon, GA. Land of many kind people and no good coffee. Needless to say the lack of Espresso has made me drag my butt quite a bit the last few days. It does help that the doctor here very much wants to keep me full time. The fact that my last 3 assignments, all of which have been weeks long, have wanted to give me permanent position is very encouraging!

I really don't even know how to describe my current headspace. On one hand, I'm getting a lot done and doing pretty well with weight watchers. On the other hand I feel despair creeping up on me concerning how much there is still to be done and the multiple situations I can not positively affect for others. There are so many people I wish I could help but honestly there is not much I can do in most of these situations.

Money wise, we're about to hit a number of large outlays for house refinancing, apt rent, moving, etc. I have some money saved, but it's still a bit terrifying. We're also going to have to stop supporting financially the people that are living with us. Letting them live with us rent free is apparently not enough wiggle room for them to get their finances in order. J has been giving them his salary for the last 6 weeks to make ends meet, but at this point we need this money. He's also driving the wife to the job he got her pretty much every day, costing him free time and us a significant amount of gas money. I'm not sure he can say no to be honest though- this is his best friend in the world. Still it needs to be done. It's getting to the point that I am looking forward to moving just so we can be away from their constant needs.

I am totally avoiding even thinking about the fact that I will be leaving all of my chosen family top make this move. I've known for a while now that Atlanta is not my place, and have been staying for the people I love so much. But it's time.

mOER

Comments

[waywalker.livejournal.com]

Took me a little while to think of something completely positive to say. *grin* You've got a -lot- going on at home and at work! It' a tribute to you that you're not completely overwhelmed. Well done!

And remember: family is the only long distance relationship that ever works. *sage nod* We'll all be here.

[philitre.livejournal.com]

Sweetie, good friends would not be such a burden on you. Or shouldn't be. Hope your backbone is stiff enough to do what needs to be done.

Good luck with all your plans.

An elder once reminded us that .....

[paidiraiompair.livejournal.com]

*if* a community makes the firm decision that their unity IS a priority of real proportion, NOTHING can break it. I've seen the truth of that many times in my life, and it is a tribute to those who so make such a commitment to one another and allow nothing to lessen it's importance.

aho

[elvis.livejournal.com]

I am a born and bred Georgia boy, I'll leave the state I have loved at the drop of a hat these days without much regret or motivation. No work, tired scene, and just bored of it.