Bad headspace

[mermaidblue]

I am at work, and things are quiet...but I still can't sleep.

I can't stop thinking about everything with Jason. I don't know what to do or how to let him go. I have no idea how to even begin untangling our lives.

Yes he is starting AA tomorrow and we have counseling in a couple of weeks. And I will try. But I have very little hope at this point. I don't know if I can ever trust him again.

All I can think about is the boy I fell in love with almost 8 years ago, who in some ways was more independent than the man I live with now. He wants to me to believe in him. And I don't know how.

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**HUGS**

[paldin43.livejournal.com]

My thoughts and prayers

[ama3x3.livejournal.com]

alcoholism is a progressive disease. I'm not surprised that J isn't the same person you fell in love with 8 years ago. please, please, please go to al-anon yourself. you have to change as well if you want to have the relationship you desire.
I will keep the candles lit and prayers going. I feel for both of you. many alcoholics lose many relationships in their steady progression down.
you must resolve to live each day as it comes, no expectations. expectations will destroy you if you buy into them.
good luck with it, my dear.

[mermaidblue.livejournal.com]

I found an Al-Anon meeting here in town but it's not until Friday.

I'll work on the expectations.

Thanks for the help and the prayers.

[kyburg.livejournal.com]

One day at a time. You only get one of them at a time, anyway.

[2redpath5.livejournal.com]

This is heartbreaking. I'm aching for you.

[phreddiva.livejournal.com]

xoxox.
thoughts with you that I'm not willing to say on an unlocked post. Just know that addiction is a disease. It doesn't mean you have to tolerate it, but he has little control over his betrayal. Whether you will stay when you have all of the information is the question. Luck and love to you.