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mermaidblue) wrote2011-01-08 04:04 pm
mermaidblue) wrote2011-01-08 04:04 pm
Here goes
.... first real post in quite a while.
How am I doing. OK, I guess. Frankly, I'm exhausted from 40 days without a single day off and very little uninterrupted sleep. But I'm plugging along and getting ready to go home at the end of the week. There are lots of things I'll miss about Machias- the natural beauty, the great people, my quiet little oasis of an apartment. But I don't think I could do this long term without a partner to split the call with.
Money wise things are pretty good. I;m carefully putting away a portion of my salary for taxes next year so I don't get caught out. I did manage after a fair amount of legwork to get the house refinance through yesterday. It'll mean coming out of pocket with some cash, but it'll get us a lower interest rate and a payment that is much closer to what we can rent the house for. We'll still be taking a small loss every month, especially after we pay the property management agency, but it'll be a lot better and make things easier in MA.
As far as the job transition goes, I've done everything I need to do and at this point we are just waiting on my MA license and credentialing at the hospital. From talking to my new coworker, it sounds like she and the hospital will be very glad to have another full time hospitalist there. I need to brush up on some emergency procedures though, since I haven't done some things since residency.
Jason and I are fine, just tired of being apart. I miss the puppies horribly and think that I'd slide in to depression if I was without all of them for much longer.
I did take a fairly significant leap for myself and join weight watchers last week. I really did not want to, in fact think about it still makes me feel a bit queasy. I've tried so many things over the years, and if this one doesn't work either I don't know what I'll do with myself. Once I have health insurance again, I'll go to a dietician, etc and get my thyroid rechecked as well. But so far, I haven't had any trouble staying within the point values. I do need to be more active as well, although I've gotten in at least one activity point a day.
I find myself being very emotional of late. I'm not really sure why. There's nothing really wrong per se. But little things seem to be hitting me harder than I'd expect or in unusual ways. My brain just won't quiet down, but there's so much going on I CAN'T SEEM TO PROCESS MY WAY THROUGH ANY ONE THING. Like, why should weight watchers bother me? Why do I suddenly miss Tasha so much? Why does it seem like everything I have to do before we move is piled up so high I'll never get to the bottom?
I know these changes are for the good, that I'll never fit in medicine in Georgia. If there's anything that proves that, it's how much everyone likes me here in Maine. But there are so many people I'll miss, and so many thing I wish were different.
And I can't change any of them.
How am I doing. OK, I guess. Frankly, I'm exhausted from 40 days without a single day off and very little uninterrupted sleep. But I'm plugging along and getting ready to go home at the end of the week. There are lots of things I'll miss about Machias- the natural beauty, the great people, my quiet little oasis of an apartment. But I don't think I could do this long term without a partner to split the call with.
Money wise things are pretty good. I;m carefully putting away a portion of my salary for taxes next year so I don't get caught out. I did manage after a fair amount of legwork to get the house refinance through yesterday. It'll mean coming out of pocket with some cash, but it'll get us a lower interest rate and a payment that is much closer to what we can rent the house for. We'll still be taking a small loss every month, especially after we pay the property management agency, but it'll be a lot better and make things easier in MA.
As far as the job transition goes, I've done everything I need to do and at this point we are just waiting on my MA license and credentialing at the hospital. From talking to my new coworker, it sounds like she and the hospital will be very glad to have another full time hospitalist there. I need to brush up on some emergency procedures though, since I haven't done some things since residency.
Jason and I are fine, just tired of being apart. I miss the puppies horribly and think that I'd slide in to depression if I was without all of them for much longer.
I did take a fairly significant leap for myself and join weight watchers last week. I really did not want to, in fact think about it still makes me feel a bit queasy. I've tried so many things over the years, and if this one doesn't work either I don't know what I'll do with myself. Once I have health insurance again, I'll go to a dietician, etc and get my thyroid rechecked as well. But so far, I haven't had any trouble staying within the point values. I do need to be more active as well, although I've gotten in at least one activity point a day.
I find myself being very emotional of late. I'm not really sure why. There's nothing really wrong per se. But little things seem to be hitting me harder than I'd expect or in unusual ways. My brain just won't quiet down, but there's so much going on I CAN'T SEEM TO PROCESS MY WAY THROUGH ANY ONE THING. Like, why should weight watchers bother me? Why do I suddenly miss Tasha so much? Why does it seem like everything I have to do before we move is piled up so high I'll never get to the bottom?
I know these changes are for the good, that I'll never fit in medicine in Georgia. If there's anything that proves that, it's how much everyone likes me here in Maine. But there are so many people I'll miss, and so many thing I wish were different.
And I can't change any of them.